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Oct 21, 2017

I’m Just Tired

written by Karlon Cromwell
in category Articles

“Our bones are dry and our hope is lost.” Seems every single day we’re faced with the task of carrying around the past. Each day we are either living in the past or confronted with it. Yet we live in a different time altogether — a time where we’re all just tired. How is it even possible to manage it all? — The past, present and let’s not even mention the future — seems the moment your done with a day and its tasks, your onto the next. Wisdom says all the works that are done under the sun; are indeed, vanity and grasping for the wind.

We work to take care of things and yet they never seem finished, looking at this situation all truly seems meaningless and burdensome. Yet is this what life is suppose to be? Can we truly believe we are here simply to work and provide for our needs and the needs of our immediate love ones? In my own experience the thing that has brought me the most happiness has been to give someone else hope or as some would say insight. There are so many of my friends who are on the same track for 10-15 years never knowing there’s more available to them beyond running and running and running.

I am often faced with the reality that although I have given others hope — some might even call it purpose — it’s not enough. Hope isn’t meant to be just a thought, it’s a life-giving principle which demands action. It is funny that no one has ever asked me what’s the source of my altered perspective on life — there are “serious” matters to attend to — yet I never allow myself to be consumed or blinded by them. One thing is sure pain is very real, when it’s unchecked it begins to rip you from the inside out. I have looked at life based on what I have read from Psalm 34:6 / Psalm 3:1-3 yes it’s found in the Bible and yes many question the idea of God let alone his written words. Yet when I look at what’s available out there every other form of hope comes from within. These philosophical ideologies empower you but in the end, the power comes from within. This idea of saving yourself is limited by your ability to do so and your ability to do so comes from our knowledge of the world around us. However, by holding onto something greater than us, places us on a higher level. As long as what we hold on it can carry us, support us and provide for us then we are limited only by its ability. I’ve realized that because God is limitless then there is never a reason to not trust him, never a reason to simply give in to what appears to be defeat. Psalm 18:16-19 is one of my favorite Psalms not because it says God never allows us to experience moments of difficulty or because he gives us a smooth road but because there is a firm declaration that he saves.

“He sent from above, He took me;

He drew me out of many waters.

He delivered me from my strong enemy,

From those who hated me, For they were too strong for me.

They confronted me in the day of my calamity,

But the Lord was my support.”

Another word is he restores, in all of our problems even if we die HE promises that he will resurrect us. John 11:25

Hope alone cannot fuel change it must be entwined with FAITH & LOVE.

Building a new mind that isn’t hopeless is impossible by a limited human logic. It truly takes sight not seen by eyes, or comprehended by hearts but something far deeper. For instance who would imagine human flight would be possible, after all some of us weigh well over 300 pounds. Yet Modern flight began in 1783 when Joseph-Michael and Jacques-Ètienne Montgolfier engineered the first hot-air balloon flights. No matter how secular or anti-God these individuals were all good gifts come from God according to James 1:17, the principle of possibility God has placed in man, whether he chooses to use his achievement for good or bad is then up to him. Hope found in our limited ability restricts us, it gives us empty resources and freezes our action. The reason we find ourselves tired all the time is because we trust in our ability to do everything. Our busy schedules gives us the impression that we are productive but busyness can often lead to barrenness.

Take your time with life, realize that there is so much more that can be given to you if you depend on the one who is infinite. “A life in Christ is a life of restfulness. There may be no ecstasy of feeling, but there should be an abiding, peaceful trust. Your hope is not in yourself; it is in Christ. Your weakness is united to His strength, your ignorance to His wisdom, your frailty to His enduring might. So you are not to look to yourself, not to let the mind dwell upon self, but look to Christ.” — Steps to Christ

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